I know, I know. I'm back already. Anything but continue to clean my rooms? It's coming along, though, I swear.

So I get to completely cross something off of my list. I made a few phone calls to Richard Bland to get everything straight. I don't need to meet with anyone in the office. I'm going to finish the application I started. I may do so at Peggy's house, but I feel like she might be nosy about it and try to instruct me. Although she is a professor, she doesn't have much knowledge about financial aid. In fact, a few years ago, she advised me to not file for financial aid because I wouldn't get any money. I believed her.

My mom is divorced and hasn't worked in two years and lives off of a $205 disability check and I haven't seen my dad in almost five years? Yeah, that means I definitely wouldn't receive any money.

I had something that's not as petty as the things I've been putting in my journal lately that I wanted to write about. I don't think I'm in my right frame of mind to do that right now. Besides, I think I may save that as a Livejournal update since it has been a while.

I think I'm afraid to be as nice to James as I feel sometimes. Isn't that stupid? (Stupid isn't the word, but you know what I mean.) When someone is nice to me with words, especially in the romantic sort of way, I'm initially compelled to insult them jokingly. Ahh, I know that he understands that it's just the way I am and I appreciate that he deals with it and continues to tell me how he feels despite my reaction, but I want to be better to him. I think it's a childish way to act the way I do.

No relationship is flawless nor is all communication always open and receptive, not even with yourself. If you believe so, you're probably not perceiving from every existing angle. But I will change it that as much as I, myself, possible can. Not try; I will.

Now. v.v Rooms need to be cleaned.

ahh well goood luck 2 yas!! yea no relationship is flawless, lol
» CPKviperpheonix on 2005-10-26 08:07:39

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